what now?

when all that is going thru my mind is to give up the whole course and maybe start working. or go for a private degree somewhere else. i seriously am not cut out for this whole nus thing. work hard. got a A, but then got a D for another module and it offset the results. really, i think i'm stupid. i admit it. i'm so stupid this is not where i belong. )): i can no longer tell myself "OKAY SHUTING YOU CAN DO THIS!!!"

today's investment is chui. chui. chui. chui. chui! no other words to describe it.

because i simply HATE doing things for the sake of doing it. i want to be able to manage it and do it well, but fuck this is NOT WORKING! ))))))))))))))))))):