I'm here today to express one major problem in my life now, UNIVERSITY ADMISSION! Before i actually received any replies from the university, i was all depressed over it. Now that i finally got replies from all three university, i'm depressed all over AGAIN. I do not understand why isit so difficult to study in singapore? there are so many factors to decide before and after application. questions like where will my degree bring me, isit a good degree, should i choose the better school or the better degree, can i cope in that school/course, should i THIS SHOULD I THAT!

I realised that to be able to make decision fast with satisfactions, we all have to know our own weakness, strength and interest VERY WELL. Basically, i'm trying to say i do not exactly know my capability. As much as SMU being a better degree to take up, i'm wondering if i can make it. It is not about being confident or not, its about the true HARD FACT if i'm smart enough. i guess i will definately work very hard and have no life all over again if i go into SMU because i do not have much knowledge on busi, but what matters more is our future right? whether or not i want to put myself in a bigger pool of the industry, with more options or make my path visible in real estate industry.

Many people told me to choose the one that i'm more interested in, but the fact is i'm not interested in any of the above at all. I grow to realised that my interest is just an interest and besides i was not following my interest for so long. Thus, my mission in life now is "if i'm in it, i will do my best out of it". All in all, there are just huge question marks and fear to take the step out. Maybe i should take NUS instead of SMU seen making decision is so difficult for me. it will be easier because in the future i will not freak out when i have to make decision for which industry to go into. tsk. FUCKING STUPID.